Sunday, September 19, 2010

Living well...

I had a major turning point in my thinking today. Kinda like one of those "come to Jesus" moments. If you're not up for hearing about me and my "be your own shrink" moment, go ahead and stop reading HERE.

So...naming no names and keeping this as vague as I possibly can (I can see you all now wondering if it's you I'm going to be talking about...) there is someone in my life that I struggle with. I'll just admit it. We all have SOMEONE, right? Please don't let me think I'm alone in this. Anyway, this person has always been someone that I think in some strange way I feel like I need to "compete" with. (Don't worry, exceptional friends of mine...it's probably not you...said person probably doesn't even read this blog.) I truly am happy for people who are talented and have skills that I can't even possibly dream of having. I think my issue with said person is that I never feel like this person thinks I am good at anything. That sounds slightly conceited like I think I'm good at a lot of things, but there are some things I am good at, even if I don't particularly excel, and said person, it seems, is only concerned with how great they are at things.

So, now that I'm you're all confused...this person did something that slightly felt like a slap in the face. Only slightly, but nevertheless. I felt that all too familiar feeling of anger starting to boil over. I found myself concocting all of these crazy ways to get my revenge. Suddenly I just stopped and did a mental head slap. Why do I care? Honestly, why? I know who I am. I know what I'm good at. Why on earth does it matter what this person does? And the best revenge I realized I could possibly have was to live well. Live well and be thankful every day that I am me and for all of the things I am blessed with in this life. I have more than one person could possibly ask for and I want to consciously choose each day to live life to its fullest. I want to be one of those people who others want to be around because I'm always happy. I've been a huge Debbie Downer this last week and the energy that took was exhausting. I have felt so wonderful and vibrant today and I want to keep that ALWAYS.

If I ever forget to make all of you feel important, or special, or talented. I truly am sorry. I never want anyone to have to feel that I don't notice their talents, or behaviors. I'm thankful for all of you wonderful people reading this blog. Even if it's maybe only my parents....:)

7 comments:

Mom/Kim/Jewel said...

A-Ha moment. Aren't they great!! I am happy that you realized, or remembered how amazing you are!! I always tell you that you are my Idol!! That other person truly has nothing on you!! I know who it is by the way. Keep being the wonderful, thoughtful, talented woman that you are!

mistieleigh said...

good thoughts. i also have to remind myself sometimes to not let certain people get to me...it is SOOO normal. Nice perspective though to just live well and focus on what you love to do and those you love to be around. amen sista!

sam c.hart jr said...

Love that post! You are totally right. Keep up the great work.

Rheanna said...

Justin and I were talking about this same type of thing last night! I love those kinds of a-ha moments, they are so great!

Soren and Sandy said...

I read your blog silly! But I know the feeling!

I am pretty sure we all have those lovely people in some form. I tend to have people who I don't necessarily compete with, but whose only goal is to bring me down and do their best to bring ruin to my life. It sucks, but the ending of your blog is totally the right attitude and how to handle it! I never thought you were a downer! I just love you...from as far back as I can remember :-)

Me said...

Could I schedule an appointment for your shrink services?? HA HA!

Steve said...

I learned many years ago that I could not let what other do influence what I did. I also found like you that doing what I knew was right or doing what I should do, really bothered people that were trying to get to me. I found myself having fun doing whats right with the motivation of watching them get mad at me. Kinda sick huh? Oh well it sure helped me get through hard times and enjoy it. You are the greatest!!!